If you know me at all then you know I LOVE accessories!

Here are some of my favorite earrings from Betsey Johnson.

I love her stuff!!!

If Only

When I'm feeling down I usually tend to start fantasizing about different things and browse online for said things. It varies from travel destinations, such as Irish bed and breakfasts, Caribbean cruises, volunteering somewhere in South America, African safaris, etc, to different career paths, such as travelling nurse, flight attendant, international tour guide, having my own ceramic and/or glass studio, having my own  bakery, etc.. And sometimes I fantasize about a brand new wardrobe....Tonight, SHOES!

In a perfect dream world I think these would be my perfect dream wedding shoes. 

Christion Louboutin Fifi 100 mm

This is what perfection looks like as a black pump.

Christion Louboutin Alti Pump 140 mm

I want them!

My favorite thing about Louboutins are the red soles. Maybe someday I'll be able to own a pair...Until then I'll keep dreaming.

Quick Vent Sesh

I don't want to work anymore. I'm tired of attempting the balancing act required in life.  I really want to do more art and focus on ceramics and glass and not worry about anything else.  Can I just be an artist and a bum?? The only problem is then I couldn't afford the lifestyle I like.  I want to jump this tightrope.

I just watched Letters to Juliet and absolutely loved it.  Try as I may to deny it, I really am a hopeless romantic.  I want my very own fairytale ending just like every other girl.  I want to fall in love with some amazingly wonderful, ruggedly handsome man who sweeps me off my feet and makes all my dreams come true.  The kind of love that keeps you walking in the clouds, that makes you smile for no reason at all.  I don't want to be grounded anymore.

I love Ben Harper's "Forever".
"Not talkin' 'bout a year no not three or four
I don't want that kind of forever in my life anymore
forever always seems to be around when it begins
but forever never seems to be around when it ends
so give me your forever please your forever
not a day less will do from you..."

CarCar's New Car!

Well, I guess I'm officially an adult now, but that doesn't mean I'm grown-up! ;) 

I bought my very own brand new car 2 weeks ago.  It was pretty exciting, especially since I didn't need a co-signer or anything. It was also bittersweet. As much I wanted a new car, and I love it, I hate the fact that I now have a financial responsibility and commitment for 5 years. It's different from paying rent and utilities and all those other "little" bills. Honestly, it kind of scares me. The other thing that had/has me a little down is that the entire down payment was EVERYTHING I had been saving to go volunteer abroad and travel.  However, I'm grateful I was and am in a position to support myself. Kinda. haha.

Grandpa Bob

Nana and Bob Nov 2001

 My grandpa Bob was the best grandpa in the world!  I wish I knew how to upload the video of Katie, Laurel and Tadd singing, "Grandpa Bob is great! Ya! Ya! Ya!".  That pretty much sums it up.  He was the one who coined the nickname "Sugar Lips" for me. I'll never forget his sloppy, wet kisses! haha. When I said goodbye to him he kept asking for one more.  I think I gave him 3 or 4!  I'd give him all the kisses he wants!  He was a wonderful, loving man.  He was the most friendly person I've ever met or known.  He could have a conversation with anyone and everyone knew who he was! I am so grateful to know that I'll get to see him again someday.  I'll be able to hug him and dance with him.  I loved the way he danced, especially with Nana.  I love that I have so many wonderful memories with him.  His memory makes my heart smile.  I love you Grandpa Bob! Forever and always!  I'll be seeing you!

Boise

I normally love spontaneous last minute trips, but this is one I'm not too excited for.  My dad called me last night at 9 and told me that we were going to get in the car in the morning (on Saturday) and drive to Boise to see my grandparents and then drive back on Monday.  So, I called in to work, let them know what was going on, and now I'm packed and just about ready to go.  My parents were planning on bringing the dogs along but luckily I was able to talk them out of that.  I'm grateful to be able to go see my grandparents, even if it is just for a day, but I sure wish we were flying!  I wish the circumstances were different, but, like I said, I'm grateful to be able to go see them despite everything else.  My grandpa hasn't been doing very well and he's back in intensive care. I love him so much, and it makes me really sad that he's in such bad health.  I'm nervous to go see him in the hospital because I don't want it to be like when I saw Lillian for the last time.  I pretend to be numb, but I'm really sad. 

I've never planned out the details of my someday wedding.  I mean, like most girls I've looked at dresses and cakes and dreamed, but never set my heart on any of it. The only thing I've known I really wanted was to dance with Bob.  It breaks my heart to know he probably won't be there, physically at least.  I want to dance with him like my sisters did and see how happy it made him.  Life just isn't fair.  Perhaps he's lucky.  I'm almost excited for him, but really sad for me and my family.  We all love him so much.  I love him.